Ending 2011

Wow, It was a whirlwind of a year. I didn't write at all, shame on me. Things have definitely changed over the last year. Jared and I did a few things here and there. Came to the realization that I just might always be sick but then....we got our little miracle. We're having a baby, due in August. It was such a big surprise but the best Christmas we have ever had.

Jared's parents randomly ask if we are trying to have kids, finally one day they stopped asking. Thank goodness, I don't know if Jared said something or they finally figured it was a sore subject. I was too afraid to say anything, being afraid that the day we started a family would never come. This year was good for the most part, no hospital visits or dramatic doctor visits. I got into yoga and was doing great and then came Vegas...after that I broke the opposite sesamoid bone in my right foot this time....last time it was the left. I must be one lucky gal. I'm pretty sure Jared is worried that I won't live to see my 30th birthday some days. I love him, I love him for caring for me, for loving me the way he does. He's the best thing I have. Things got back on the right track. It was time for the holidays, party after party. My doctor started me on Cabergoline again to help with my crazy hormone levels again. So while I wasn't drinking I felt hungover anway. I figured it was the meds. After seeing a friend on her birthday, she had asked if I had still been taking my meds, I was. She then started talking about all these babies and birthdays and baby names, had I given these things any thoughts for when it would happen for us. She was thinking ahead as they were gonna start planning for number two. Something hit me. I had been feeling so weird, that was normal due to my hormones always playing games on me, so a missed period, the nausea and larger than life breasts didn't seem that weird....but something made me think.
The next morning I stopped by Rite Aide and purchased two pregnancy tests. Jared worked early that morning so I went on with the stick business and at seconds the test was reading postive...i thought it was wrong...so I did it again, and again, and again. Four tests later it was confirmed that I was pregnant. Jared was meeting me later that day to finish up some Christmas shopping. I kept looking at him trying to find the best way to tell him because I couldn't keep it in any longer. He was driving me back to me car and I just blurted it out...I'm pregnant. He stopped the car to look at me and said...what? So I said it again....then he said what again. It was quite comical, the reaction and my look.
It was hard keeping it quiet over the next couple weeks. We had to get through Christmas with both sides of the family and then New Years with all of our closest friends. We thought due to the complications that could arise that we should wait until after our 10 week appointment to tell anyone. I felt like I was constantly lying to EVERYONE. That was hard. So many smells were keeping me behind my scarf so I wouldn't puke...the nausea all day is the worst. But we made it to 10 weeks and have finally shared the great news with our family and close friends. I do feel slightly worried still like something could go wrong. I have had so many stomach issues that could some how make something go wrong. My doctor...doctors, keep telling me that I just need to listen to my body and let them know what it's saying. I always put things off, I can't do that anymore. Wish me luck on this grand adventure. I'll update as we go.